I have been telling myself that I will write whenever I have a chance but I don't. Believe me its not that I don't have time to do so I am just scared, yes, I said it I AM SCARED of writing about myself, or my feelings... A couple of months ago I went to consult with a doctor and I decided to see a homeopath. It was an interesting consultation with a lot of tears and for the first time in my life I looked back and shared with him what I never shared with anybody.
He mentioned that one of the things to recovery is to write about your feelings he said JUST WRITE. My director went to a conference in Thailand and brought a very nice journal for me to WRITE but I don't write at all. I AM SCARED to pour it all out what if I hurt someone's feelings by doing that not that I will be writing about people but what if it ends up in wrong hands and they don't understand what i was writing about???
A big question hey! I use to love reading that have also changed I no longer read like before - I lost interest. Slowly am starting to visit magazine isle in shops and buy one copy instead of six different copies I used to buy. I am glad that I am slowly going back... Its an achievement for me and I am proud of myself.
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I know what you mean about what if it falls into the wrong hands.
ReplyDeleteI guess there are a couple of ways to deal with this.
One is to use fake names for people. Of course some will recognize themselves, if they find your journal, but a stranger who finds the journal if you lose it, won't know who you mean.
Another thing that works for cathartic writing, is to write it and then burn the pages. It feels just as good. Once you have done the writing, those feelings are out of you. You complete the process by burning the pages and removing the words from the world around you.
I hardly ever re-read what I have written. Burn it, you won't miss it and you will feel just as good.
Good luck ;-)
Write the really personal things in your journal and write other things like this blog post online - it is good to write, little sister.
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